time update: its currently week 6 of term 1 2010 YEAR 12 YIKES!!! =O=
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some songs i'm listening over and over again as listed below i didn't list some of the krn bands one haha =D i'm sure you know what they are anyway heheh :] and some songs new some are old hahah these are all on my phonee x)
-black box by stan walker
" there's a little black box somewhere in the ocean holding all the truth about us.. its a little black box of wreckage of emotion everything that ever was.."
-let go (remix) by kristine mirelle ft. Dj sancho
-breakeven by the script
-wait for you by elliot yamin
- before the worst- by the script
- writer's block by nasri
and also pianoo songss!!! =DD they the bestt woooo~~ hahaha i was only listing a few i'm sure there are much much much moree!!! xDD but they seem to be the ones that i'm listening over and over again.. dunno whyy catchyy tunee?? rhthm lyricss?? who knowss hehehe :) okok i feel really strange todayy =D very strange i must add xP
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hrm............................................... tmr is going to be a reall interesting day lol
tired im a sleep
i read through the last few posts and i start to feel sad ... this blog is wayy to sad haha there needs to be more fun liao =p
too much doom and gloom can really erode away a persons life!
cheer up princess ill be here for you haha
and you know i mean it... =D
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sometimes you have to accept things even the things you have created for yourself... or if the person truly did love you or meant a lot in your life they would do anything to protect you or would do anything to keep you safe to do what you say to,,, hahah i'm ramblingg i have no idea what i'm saying.. and these days i have no idea what i do each day anymore its as if my body and soul is here but everything is elsewhere i'm not in my body.. what is wrong with me... xS am i suffering a disease that no one knows of.. my own creation... xO
Labels: acceptance.. forgiving..
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sigh kinda feel like an reject from the even the outcasts..
why would i ruin smthing that was good..
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during the time since the singapore trip quite a number of weeks..
well the holidays have flown by quite fast... not really it actually feels really long... its turned into a routine the usual day would be to wake up.. go computer.. go sleep.. go tv... go sleep and eat inbetween and go to work if its a work day...
also with the occasionally meet up with friends which adds the needed *fun* factor lol
and unfortunately i still havent got my friends camera with all the singapore trips ;( so i havent even got to see what we took.... quite upsetting really!
the last few days things have picked up pace with O week coming close friends have been getting more active and are planning events...
anyways pretty much everything thats just been typed is the unimportant drivel update status of whats i've been doing...
whats really been happening is the constant flux in my emotions haha
you of all people would know what i mean...
i think im getting use to you as a friend, a close friend, a sister haha someone i can be honest with and truly muck around with.. someone who listens, encourages, makes my life a whole lot better than what i feel it really is..
you are always there when im having my numerous amounts of problems, listening to me complain about something silly or something serious... perhaps i've taken that for granted
if i have ...i am sorry
you know me better then everyone.. my friends perhaps even more than my closest friend, my family...
i am truly grateful and indebted to you for all that youve done...
i know that you might say hahaha but ive done nothing
or that haha im not really that special... but you are! you really are! ok..
of recent times...
the girl im sure you know who im refering to..
i'm ... sigh~
i didnt really expect you to act this way =\
personally i kinda feel like you are overreacting but then again perhaps for reason.
i want to first say that.. i've only met her once, we chatted for a quite a while, we had stuff in common, shes nice and all, i like her. see i said it i like her. but really only as a friend who ive just met i dont know her very well... but i like her she seems like a cool person to be friends with.
IF something happens to grow out of that friendship.. which is a very big if.. i'm sure you would be the first to know... sigh ok i admit ive thought that she would make a cool gf...... but thats all sigh... i... am all over the place atm... when i think what i just typed.... i feel guilty.. i feel as if im betraying you.. i feel as if im hurting you and wounding you.. so i keep away from that... but even still i wouldnt mind being friends with her..
and.. YOU HAVENT lost me =o
sigh.... WHY would you ever think i would just up and go and leave you behind?
WHAT makes you think you still dont have an important role in my life...
its only been 2 days since then...
you make it sound as if ive forgotten you and gone off with someone else!!!!
=.="
do you really feel that im that mean and cold hearted....
OMG you make feel so bad.
like a prisoner
im making friends...
PERHAPS what you typed would have made a whole alot more sense if you were MY GF...
and that confuses me alot... to be honest im still not fully over you.
i still have a hope that something will happen and itll be back to what it was ...
but i cant change your feelings.. and its taken quite awhile to get use to it...
but argh =\ im all confused...
sigh... this is messy
so i neatly summarised what i feel towards to you in these song lyrics i hear LOL
you know me hahaha
There's always that one person
that will always have your heart
You never see it coming cause
you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me,
it's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby, you will always be my boo
ya rly...always.. theres a special place in my heart.. in my mind... i trust you wont forget that you occupy that spot... even if all i remember you by is a memory in the future you always be there...
=.="
lols am, i over typing or over reacting am i being hypocritical
i do not want to lose you, princess! ok can you hear me!
can you hear my voice.... im trying to yell to carry my message all the way to you...can you hear it?
i must say this... i cannot love 2 people at the same time in the same way..
and i still ...still...still.. still still deep down still love you...
i havent given up i think... i would like to say that everythings clear cut and that since you dont like me that way... that ive stopped thinking of you in that way.. but i still do... albeit its fading... i've tried hard... to make it fade alil because it hurts.. truthfully it hurts alot when i do think of it...
im sorry for all of this mess i feel like shit
and please excuse me for all the bad engrish..
and grammer lol
[on a side note]
lol my first post on laptop earlyy in the morningg wahahhaa woke up at 6 something today and couldn't fall back asleep againn :( ahha i still have yet the webcam to test outt ;) care to be my specimen matty bwahahah kiddingg unless you want too Oo you strange childd xPP lol okok as you can tell i'm kindaa.. cuckoo in the headd atmm lol o wellss don't mind mee wheeeeeeee~~~~~~~`` okok i should be preparing for school soon :) wow its soo easy to type on laptop some people made it seem really hard Oo HAHA NO MATTY I'M NOT USING A KEYBOARD XPP okok byeee for nowsss hope you have yet another eventfull dayy=)
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frozen in time
Forever it will stay
forever in my heart! x3~
my comments right now:
i don't want it to be just lost in "a moment" <--- omg dodgy quotation marks haha xDD i want to be lost in a year where all happiness was there and life was just bliss and so carefree~~~~~ xP hehe yeaa...
Labels: reminiscence :P
Wandered around chinatown with my aunties.. and went to henderson waves/Mt Faber park..
haha i wished i could share the view with you.
Day 7
oh this day i met up with my uncle and aunty and cousins who i've never met before...
was fun..
went to sentosa with tanny
haha I AM KING of the luge ;)
and might i add underwater world = rip-off lol
after that we went little india to a buffet in some fancy restraunt in expensive looking hotel haha
after having dinner with all my cousins and aunties me and my friend spilt off and headed to clarke quay..
to be treated with fireworks and some stunt show =)
sigh~ i miss the night life and the transport and convenience in singapore =\
Day 8
went to the east coast with my cousin and his wife to....
go BOWLING lol.. generally not the reason to go east coast but meh ;D
yea im hopeless at bowling haha
after that we had to go back early around 2pm cus my cousin leaves his work to last minute as always...
so he dropped us at the national library b/c my friend is the biggest bookworm and wanted to check out the library. spent a good 2 hours+ there...
next we took a mrt from bugis to orchard where we had dinner and watched
the imaginarium of dr parnassuss
weird as movie... messed up my mind ==" totally couldnt make sense of it
the mirror... the imaginations.. esp the last part =\=
haha when we got back at 11ish we got told off b/c we were careless and left the a/c on after we had left instead of turning it off.
Day 9
we strolled through suntec in the morning with my cousin joyce, went around the fountain of prosperity i think it was.. haha my cousin was scared of touching it cus she thought the water was dirty lol...
from there we went to the durian ;o and chinatown again in search of figurine stores ...
sheesh to think the anime stores dont know nodame contabile. shocking really.
at night we spilt up and joyce went home and me and my friend met up with my other cousins jing qing and yongjie...
to go sushi bar at jurong point mmmm i love jap food
and we ended the night with the movie
"law abiding citizen"
another late night back.. around 12..
Day 10
went out with jing qing and her friend to changi village and took a bumboat over to pulau ubin
went cycling around all the kampungs, it was like singapore 30years ago..
was nice cycling and then visiting chek jawa..
haha we saw the "rare" hornbill there and lotsa lotsa mudskips lol some were so big they coudnt skip , oh and there was so many different crabs, some small some big..
we even managed to see the mud lobster o.o
anyways we were cycling around for most of the day hot and sweaty very...
we spilt up with my ocusin her friend..
we had to take mrt from pasir ris all the way back to redhill to go clean up and change and then go to bugis to meet up with joyce and her sis jess for dinner
STEAMBOAT =DD
i love steamboat there.. so cheap haha and so much more food..
haha i think the aunty in charge was bias towards us cus my friend was foreigner was... out of her way kind haha.. neways we got back home tired.. and late.
day 11
we... stayed home and watched tv lol boring... very. well until later in the afternoon we went to my auntys house for dinner and to use the computer... to online check in for our flight..
in the end it didnt work so we decided to watch on tv NINJA WARRIOR oO
awesome show lol its like wipeout cross gladiator.. jap style
day 12
we stayed home packed everything...
and left that night had dinner at the airport with my cousins ..
day 13 got home early in the morning.. on my bday haha
the end
and.. i just realised that... i don't have to attend every single lecture available per unit .. only 1 ==" so stupid of me
phew ... now my contact hours seem kinda normal again =="
this part that i'm aboutto add on was written on the 9th feb 2010 at 2:11
Feels as if you've taken away everything of mine... WHY!??! what did i ever do to you!?!? and what did i ever do to deserve this??.. like a house i slowly built over years and years by myself you tore down every single piece in seconds..now i resort to another house which i've half built but now am continuing to build fully with out you taking it away from me!!AGAIN AND AGAIN...i would right now just go on and on about the things you did or the things YOU DO that.. but that would be called B!TCH!NG and so i won't say anything .. sigh.. haha lol random thoughts again don't mind me wallala :)
Labels: i will be strong~~
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MATTTTTTTY
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!
HIP HIP HOORAY
HIP HIP HOORAY
HIPHIP HOORAY!!!!!! XDD
haha my song to you:) SO SOORYY ITS SUCH A LATE POST... ><" aiyaa feel badd T_T
anywayss hopee you had the most awesomest day everr although you only came back from your flight a few hours agoo =PP haha and probs jet lagged and tiredd =\ but anyhoo whatever you plan for your birthday party/outing i hopee itss lotss of funn!! =DD and you really enjoy yourselff =) well i pretty much said a lot of things in the letter i sent haha so i don't want to repeat myself again ><" thats just... g@y lol soo haha yeaa.. =P ohh yeaa i'm sorry the letter and stuff are only small giftss couldn't go out shopping to get you anythingg =\ ... yet =PP HAHA THERE MAY BE MORE TO COMEE ^^ ... IN A YEARS TIMEE.. LOL which probs will be next years birthday :O hehehe.. but yeaa get yourself a lil something although it may not be much but haha maybe you could invest andd POOOF WOW =O haha $$$$$$$$$ kachingg kachingg =D lots of moneyy hahaha xDD ookok i think thats enough from me =D i'm sure you don't want to hear me blabbing on and on and on and on.. about nothing in particular do yoU?? ... or you DO want me too!! :O lol okok onto next post.. a more serious topic.. i suupose
Labels: HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY MY DARLINGG BWAHHAA OOOHH THERE'S SOO MUCH ROOM IN LABELS I NEVER KNEW THAT XO ~~~
and WELCOME BACK to Australia haha xD well its already stated in the title pfft =PP hehe hope you had lotss of fun and totally enjoyed yourself and immersed yourself that you completely forgot.. about the world you live in haha like AVATARRR!!!!! glad your backk ^^ WOOOOOO~ ok going on a random tangent now.. ><" anywayss hhaha as soon as i finish this post i'm onto my next and next and next... the posts just keep piling up and up and i never seem to be able to type them till now :) soo here goess.. be patient everyone :) not that there's anyone else reading this apart from pansy haha xD HII PANSYYY!!! wait let me go make that a special announcemnet xP HAHA THERE WE GOO EXTRA BIGG =PP keep on readingg =P let me know when you get bored alrights?? =\
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DAY 1
well i left melbourne on the 22nd at 6 something
i arrived in singpore at 1am and got picked up by my uncle to my aunty's apartment
unpacked some food things for my aunty, and then went to bed at 4ish am...
wake up early..7ish am, later on i bring my friend steve out to go eat at the hawker
centre downstairs, haha he struggled with the chopsticks.. and the food
then we went to walk around orchard road, just browsing shops etc,
later on at night around 7 we went to go watch a movie with my cousin and he's friends in the cathay cini-leisure centre.. but instead we found there was no seats so we decided to watch at 9ish, and went to go lan cafe lol gaming, we watched the movie "legion" after, it was about an angel protecting a group/a person who was preganant from humans possessed by other angels, because GOD had ordered the extermination of the human race..anyways it was good. got back home around 12.
DAY 2
my aunty /uncle drove me and my friend to the jurong bird park
on the way we went ate at toastbox
we got lost... i meant my uncle driving got lost... for about an hour
eventually we reach and they drop us off...
took heaps of photos
twas fun.
and than from there we went to another auntys house to eat dinner with my cousins
DAY 3
nothing we stayed home cus my friend was tired, watched tv all day long lol
day time tv there is..
news in the morning
ellen
oprah
rachel ray
some movie from the 80s
news...
then again the chinese channel had some good variety shows and dramas..
DAY 4
went to botanical gardens
then orchard road again lol
bought some books and clothes
went to vivo city after that cus we were thirsty ,
had haagen dazs and lime juice lol...
and then went to chinatown to walk around and find camera prices...for my friends dad who wanted a canon eos 7d with 15megapixels i think or more... so expensive...
got home late again around 11
DAY 5
we went to the zoo in the afternoon fun
had dinner at the same auntys place again cus my favourite food store was closed ='( when i was there... so bad luck
too be cont.
im in singapore airport atm abusing the free internet =) hmmm
sooo much to talk about =) i shall start the story later its been a great 2 weeks in singapore my second home haha
